I dont have Kids

I hate writing for the sake of writing. I feel so insincere when i do it.

On an unrelated note, i have decided to start caring more. For a long time now i didn't care about anything really. Not out of a lack of motivation but a pure desire to not care about anything at all. So as a challenge to myself, I'm blogging. Asking for prayers and sharing things here that i care about and reflecting on what these things mean to me.

1. Learning new music is always fun for me. For as long as I have been playing I have wanted to play and write music with my friends. Now I have the opportunity to do so and praise God for the chance. Something i have prayed for and has been a desire of my heart for a long time. Please pray that my head stay in it for the right reasons and that I always glorify God first with this gift he has given me.

2. Settle. That word just bothers me. I feel like thats a word that people use to make them feel better about a decision they made that they dont really like. I feel like settling is something people do when they want the easy way out. I have made it my goal to never just settle. Never settle in my relationships with people, at my work, in my walk with the Lord, or in my music. She has so much going for her and is so beautiful, i just wish some how she could see that. Somehow she would realize that you dont have to live with old mistakes and bad habits, the Lord will rise you up over those things and free you from them if you ask, instead of ..settling for them. Pray for hope beyond what is possible and for freedom from old chains, for me and her.