So I'm moving, yeah it sucks but sometimes you have to/need to and i believe this is a case of both. My roommates have always been cool, even though i think one of them is WAY overbearing on the other. I'm not going to start down that road because its a long one. Regardless, I'm moving. So i have to be out by this Sunday seeing as how its the last day of the month and i payed up through then. I have been putting off getting in shape for a long time because, well I'm lazy. It is too easy for me to be lazy where I'm living due to the Xbox 360, PS3 and Wii that are connected to our 50' TV in the living room (omg i want to play Mario cart right now...). It was FAR to easy to order pizza from hungry howies twice a week due to the fact that I know it will be delivered in under 30 min.
So sense I'm moving back in with my mom for about a month or two (its a long story that i choose not to blog about) i have decided to start exercising and eating better so that i can drop at least 30 pounds. That's my goal at least. When i re-read what i just said, it drives home the point that i have a log way to go (hahahaha *cries*).
So I arrive at work today and I am met with our chipper, energizer bunny, boarder line PCP user supervisor with a clipboard and a pen and she is writing like is 1940 and Germans are invading. Here is how the conversation went:
"HEY JOSH GOOD MORNING"
Wow that was loud. "Good morning Gina, whats with the clipboard?"
"I'm taking drink orders for the department and if people want anything to eat, do you want something?"
Such a loaded question. "So did I board an airplane or something when I came in and just didn't know it?"
"Don't be a smart ass, I'm not a flight attendant. But thats very clever."
I know i am. "I'm sorry i couldn't resist"
"So did you want something or not?"
"Can I get a Mountain Dew and some Sun Chips?"
"Yes, but only if you just be quiet the rest of the day"
"I make no guarantees"
The Mountain dew is my Kryptonite. I love it, especially with Pizza. There wasn't even hesitation in my voice when i asked for it too. This early in the morning, i knew it would be a pick-me-up so i just went for it. That is the habit I really need to break. Its like how some people cant really wake up in the morning without coffee, i cant wake up with out a mountain dew. I have been slipping into small habits like that and after a long time they really build up and impact your health. So i guess old habits die hard..
5.27.2009
5.21.2009
Looking Up
"How can we still get home, How can we still get home"
Have you ever been sitting in a room or outside and taken the time to look at whats above you. Besides becoming dizzy for a couple seconds, i find my experience is usually similar to the last; weather i be indoors or outdoors. I usually make some observation of architecture and think to my self "The person who designed this tial with all the holes in it must hate their life. How proud are you to be the guy that designed the reverse outer space tial." But after an initial cynical statement or thought, my mind wanders to whats above that. The sky. Then whats above that. Space. Then whats above that. God.
I'd like to think that when i die or when he takes me home, i would have the chance to float up, through the sky and space and marvel at the creation breathed into existence in just a week. I hope that i get the chance to see these near impossible things to fathom, so that we might grasp that God is so much bigger than us. He is so much more in control than we think/he appears to be. In 7 days he made everything that we know and so many things that we dont.
It all comes rushing back to me, as i sit and look up. My brain is a weird thing in the fact that after viewing something large, i compare it to something small. Do i deserve to be here looking at this creation, in my poor eye sight that only sees the surface of what things really are? No. I dont. But Gods will has me here. Im not going to sit here and lie to myself, I have done nothing that has glorified God in a long time. Maybe because i feel guilty for denying everything i swore i believed. Maybe because i feel like living a life where i dont care is easier than living one that i do care. I know that God forgives me, and that i need to accept that and confess and give all the guilt i carry to Jesus and pray for forgiveness.
"we're forgetting our forgiveness"
Too Bright to See Too Loud to Hear -Underoath
Have you ever been sitting in a room or outside and taken the time to look at whats above you. Besides becoming dizzy for a couple seconds, i find my experience is usually similar to the last; weather i be indoors or outdoors. I usually make some observation of architecture and think to my self "The person who designed this tial with all the holes in it must hate their life. How proud are you to be the guy that designed the reverse outer space tial." But after an initial cynical statement or thought, my mind wanders to whats above that. The sky. Then whats above that. Space. Then whats above that. God.
I'd like to think that when i die or when he takes me home, i would have the chance to float up, through the sky and space and marvel at the creation breathed into existence in just a week. I hope that i get the chance to see these near impossible things to fathom, so that we might grasp that God is so much bigger than us. He is so much more in control than we think/he appears to be. In 7 days he made everything that we know and so many things that we dont.
It all comes rushing back to me, as i sit and look up. My brain is a weird thing in the fact that after viewing something large, i compare it to something small. Do i deserve to be here looking at this creation, in my poor eye sight that only sees the surface of what things really are? No. I dont. But Gods will has me here. Im not going to sit here and lie to myself, I have done nothing that has glorified God in a long time. Maybe because i feel guilty for denying everything i swore i believed. Maybe because i feel like living a life where i dont care is easier than living one that i do care. I know that God forgives me, and that i need to accept that and confess and give all the guilt i carry to Jesus and pray for forgiveness.
"we're forgetting our forgiveness"
Too Bright to See Too Loud to Hear -Underoath
5.19.2009
Update to myself
So i ate some leftover pizza yesterday. It was really good. The Hungry howies thats close to my house must put some mechanism ingredient in their pizza that triggers a craving once a week for Pizza and cinnamon bread to which you are helpless to resist, true story. Well 5am rolled around this morning and I zombied (yes, I'm using it as a verb) my way into the bathroom and did my routine. Shower, comb hair, brush teeth, the usual. This whole time my stomach has been feeling upset and i chalked it up to being hungry because I'm always hungry in the morning and usually don't eat until like 8 or 9. Well i stop at QT, get a Gatorade and am on my way to work.
I think God, in all his genius in creating our bodies, has some kind of sick and twisted sense of humor because as soon as i leave the QT.. my butt cheeks are foaming. I have got to poop something awful and the next closest stop is 2 miles away. My friend Rob will be shaking his head after he reads this but i went like 75 in a 45 to get there before i poo'd myself. Praise God i made it and was able to exorcise some demons in the QT bathroom stall.
I dont think I'm ever going to that QT again. /shudder
I think God, in all his genius in creating our bodies, has some kind of sick and twisted sense of humor because as soon as i leave the QT.. my butt cheeks are foaming. I have got to poop something awful and the next closest stop is 2 miles away. My friend Rob will be shaking his head after he reads this but i went like 75 in a 45 to get there before i poo'd myself. Praise God i made it and was able to exorcise some demons in the QT bathroom stall.
I dont think I'm ever going to that QT again. /shudder
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